It's just that it's been a pretty crazy year and it's not over yet, and it seems that just maybe, there's more to come before the end of year. There was a time some years ago, where I used to embrace change, sadly I realise that's hardly the case today. When did this aversion arrive? If only I could remember.
The great thing about it all, is that I can't say I wasn't warned. Towards the beginning of the year I felt a new stirring in me to write about what I believed this year held for me(something I hadn't done before). It's pretty spot on. One of the things I wrote was that 'I have to change, the old way of doing things isn't going to work.' How true that's been. It's quite easy to get stuck in a rut, doing the same old, same old, even though there's a place for some of that.
God's the kindest person I know. This year he's prepared me for a number of things that would take place. He did it because he loves me, knowing it would be difficult, but I think also, so that I would know how he expected me to respond. I'm not saying I knew the details, no way, if I did I would have been a big massive mess before anything took place. I really like that about Him(how he prepares us). Not once has He overlooked my emotions or discounted my life, even in the face of a huge universe, filled with millions of people with needs. As far as I can tell he thinks I'm pretty special and if you think that's strange, well let me tell you, he thinks you're pretty special too. Hahaha
So what's so great about change. It's an opportunity for us to fully trust in God. In His Goodness and Faithfulness, when we have no idea of what tomorrow brings. One of the changes and challenges for me this year was to give everything to God with no guarantee that I'd get anything back. I only had the words he'd given me a few weeks prior. It's tough, but having little idea of tomorrow is perfect breeding ground for a life of great faith. I used to pray for clarity often, I still do but not in the same way, because I've come to believe that if I always want clarity there's very little room for trust.
This year the only sure thing I had was God. He's given me my greatest desire and with this one gift it's still spilling over, cause there's a lot more that comes with it, and I'm catching glimpses of how extensive that gift is for the future. I never imagined that it would be like this, my dreams were far too small!
That's just some of the stuff that God and I did together this year(work in the trust area still continues!) So if you don't know where you're heading right now, or you're not too sure of the details, let me just say. God has an awesome plan and it's perfect. He has authority over every storm. When it's totally out of your control, be reminded that it's completely within His control. He's a Master at what He does, He is good, faithful and definitely trustworthy. Learn to trust and I believe your faith will soar. Maybe we'll start seeing the dead rise! Yes Lord!
Surely I have seen Your Goodness God, and surely I will see it in the days ahead!